My Journey Through Art, Spiritual Healing, and Rediscovery

Art has been with me for as long as I can remember. Even as a young girl, I was captivated by the power of imagery, especially the female form. I used to spend hours sketching faces and figures, drawn to the emotional depth, strength, and beauty women carried. There was something magnetic about their presence, both delicate and fierce, and I found a sense of quiet purpose in trying to capture that essence on paper.

The Past - Before Spiritual Healing

As I grew, so did my fascination with art. I pursued it academically, exploring a variety of mediums: from drawing and painting to sculpture and even makeup artistry. Each new discipline allowed me to understand the human form and emotion in different ways. But despite trying many creative paths, I never quite settled. There was always a longing for something more, a medium that truly spoke to me, something intuitive, expressive, and personal.

During college, I had my first glimpse into the world of digital art. It sparked curiosity, but at the time, I didn’t lean into it. Instead, I chose to specialise in sculpture at university. It felt tactile and grounding, a way of shaping my inner world into something real. But behind the clay and coursework, a quiet storm was brewing. I was struggling deeply with my mental health, something I kept hidden for years. My battle with addiction worsened as I tried to keep up appearances, and once I graduated, that internal struggle overtook everything.

I stopped creating completely. What once brought me joy now felt impossible. For three years, I drifted... sofa surfing, lost in addiction, drowning in debt, and slowly becoming a version of myself I no longer recognised. The light I once found in art was gone. I was numb, disconnected, and spiralling.

Then, in April 2024, something shifted. After a hospital detox and a difficult but honest confrontation with myself, I knew spiritual healing was necessary. I made a quiet promise: to reclaim my life, and with it, my art. I had nothing to fall back on, no money for canvases or paint, no studio, no strength to stand for hours at an easel. But I still had one thing: an old iPad.

That iPad became my lifeline. I had Procreate on it and started teaching myself how to use it. At first, it was clumsy. I wasn’t sure what I was doing. But unlike in the past, I didn’t give up. I let go of the pressure to be perfect. I gave myself permission to just try to explore, to make mistakes, and to express whatever I was feeling in the moment. Slowly, something began to shift. My work started to evolve, not just technically but emotionally.

The Present - Filled with Colour and Expression

I wasn’t afraid of colour anymore. I began embracing bold contrasts, textured finishes, and expressive strokes. My style became layered, sometimes chaotic, often raw, but always sincere. I was experimenting without judgment. I was reconnecting with myself through my art, and for the first time, it felt like I was creating from a place of truth.

Today, my entire artistic practice lives in the digital space. Everything I create is made using Procreate, but it carries the soul of traditional mixed media, rich in symbolism, emotion, and texture. I’m still drawn to feminine figures, and you’ll often find them at the centre of my work. They represent strength, transformation, and vulnerability. I also incorporate imagery carrying messages, like robins, which have become personal symbols of hope, resilience, and new beginnings.

What makes my art meaningful now is not just how it looks, but what it represents. Every brushstroke is a piece of my story, of survival, of healing, of coming back to life after being lost. It’s no longer just about creating something beautiful; it’s about creating something honest. Something that breathes.

The Future - Hopes and Dreams

Through my artwork and my journey, I want to reach people who may be in the thick of their own darkness, those who feel like they’ve lost their voice or their purpose. I want my art to be a reminder that healing is possible, that creativity can be a form of self-rescue, and that you are never beyond redemption.

My hope is that my work brings a sense of peace and emotional connection to the spaces it enters. I want people to hang my art in their homes and feel seen, comforted, or even inspired to start their own healing journey.

Looking ahead, I dream of one day travelling the world with nothing but a backpack and my digital tools, painting emotions as I go, letting life itself be my muse. I want to connect with others through shared experiences, host exhibitions that open conversations around mental health, and contribute to causes that support recovery and creative expression.

This journey is just beginning, but it’s already transformed my life in ways I never imagined. And now, I create not only to express, but to heal, to connect, and to remind others (and myself) that even in the darkest places, light can return.